NEGLECT SOME LIFE CLICHÉS

I know I’ll probably regret writing this and even worse, posting it, but a good friend of mine once told me,

If it makes you feel alright then go ahead darling, don’t mind how others might judge.’

Yes,today I’ll stick on that advice and speak my heart out on this page, and you,my dear reader is allowed to criticize,lament, contribute or even advice. I personally give you all the freedom,with a bonus of using any language ONLY on this piece. I’m not sure if everything is alright in my life or  I’m just lamenting for nothing, i mean, have you ever met like for consecutive strangers in row,in one day and they coincidentally ask the same question, at different time, of course,and it goes, ‘ so Caren are you dating?’

Stop laughing, i know its a silly statement,maybe not that silly, but nevertheless it got me thinking, ‘ could it be because I’m supposed to be dating, or is it  that I’m too weird to date anyone?’  probably you think i know the answer and just want to play with your psychology, well the truth is i don’t, i have no clue at all, and all this time i have been thinking I’m okay and it’s  just a phase of life until my mum asked the same.

you must be thinking , ‘she is too pretty to be single.’ ,well you are right about one thing, I’m pretty, and i also believe every girl out there is pretty too,only the level and kind of beauty differs. some are beautiful because they have good hearts, some because they are too generous, some because they got nice hair and some because they simply have a nice  way to entice people in conversations. We are all beautiful in our own ways, and that’s precisely where we get our self esteem: accepting self.

I felt like that needed to be said, so, i was talking about how i think i should be dating, but do you know it reaches a point in life where  you just get enough of being disappointed and you just want to worry about yourself, not because you are mean, but because you think its worth, yes? leave a comment if so. That’s precisely what i’m talking about,i just want ‘to do me.’

I would want to date, i have those dreams of having a family of my own too, everybody does at some point in their lives, but things are never going to fall in place overnight, its a long term process, if I’m not wrong,the Bible also testifies to this when God says to Jeremiah that he knew him,even before he was conceived. So stop worrying why your relationships can’t work, just remember your script is already written and you are just  messing it around by trying to edit it. I think i’m clear on this, MY SCRIPT IS ALREADY WRITTEN, and every fruit falls down when its due. That’s me and I’m out!